I've only paused on the callback story because I am still awaiting the casting results...
more to follow.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Monday, April 14, 2008
Is it October yet?
From September of last year until April of this year I filled my time with Pasha, Dr. McDreamy, House, Michael Scott, the cast of Heroes, a cabaret show, some dinner type theatre, and I counted down the days until April 1st arrived to begin rehearsing for Coco. You know the show that I have been cast in for the past NINE months. The show that cast me and said, “sure, have a baby just as long as it doesn’t conflict with rehersals.”
I’ve learned a lot from being in this show. First of all and most of all, rehearsing six days a week in April just about kills your chance to audition for summer productions which really sucks. I will tell you that I wouldn’t take it back for the world.
The production of Coco is going to be fantastic. The talent in the cast was strikingly intimidating, but incredibly motivating. I have been knee deep in rehearsals, auditions and CALL BACKS. I have been called back for Maria in West Side Story, Millie in 7 Brides, Sandy in Grease and Mabel in Pirates of Penzance. These callbacks have all taken place right on top of each other in the midst of rehearsal and bachlorette parties. I can’t find which way is up, and I find myself standing on the stage 100% convinced I’m sleeping.
This production of Coco has not been produced since the original was produced with Katharine Hepburn in the 1970s. I’ve heard a lot of buzz around the show, and I feel privileged to be part of the production. The show features Andrea Marcovicci as Coco Channel, and the Bay Area talented song birds will be a delight to see. For the 42nd Street newbies –keep in mind that everyone carries their script on stage, and the usage of props and costumes are kept to a minimum. The focus of the production is the singing, and it’s a treat to hear the music every night in rehearsal.
As a refresher, I read some of my not-so-recent posts about theatre, and I felt I have left some holes in some of my postings.
I did not get cast in Chicago! I am pleased to say that the cast was incredible, and they had a sold out run.
I obviously got cast in Coco despite my discouraging callback.
The general callbacks proved to be successful for me. I got a lot of calls and emails calling me back for various types of shows. I have even gotten calls to step into a production that had already been rehearsing. I suppose someone dropped out. Regardless, they were very very successful.
I re-read the post about 4 auditions, 4 callbacks, and ZERO castings… I know I know, I always say it… win some loose most. My own words struck a deep seeded nerve with me because I had FOUR callbacks THIS WEEKEND. Please may 4 not be my number nemesis.
With all this performing great sacrifice has accompanied the success, sadly. I missed my really really good friend’s wedding in Hawaii. It’s made me very very sad, but I’m looking forward to event on the 19th that Pash and I are happily attending.
I’ve learned a lot from being in this show. First of all and most of all, rehearsing six days a week in April just about kills your chance to audition for summer productions which really sucks. I will tell you that I wouldn’t take it back for the world.
The production of Coco is going to be fantastic. The talent in the cast was strikingly intimidating, but incredibly motivating. I have been knee deep in rehearsals, auditions and CALL BACKS. I have been called back for Maria in West Side Story, Millie in 7 Brides, Sandy in Grease and Mabel in Pirates of Penzance. These callbacks have all taken place right on top of each other in the midst of rehearsal and bachlorette parties. I can’t find which way is up, and I find myself standing on the stage 100% convinced I’m sleeping.
This production of Coco has not been produced since the original was produced with Katharine Hepburn in the 1970s. I’ve heard a lot of buzz around the show, and I feel privileged to be part of the production. The show features Andrea Marcovicci as Coco Channel, and the Bay Area talented song birds will be a delight to see. For the 42nd Street newbies –keep in mind that everyone carries their script on stage, and the usage of props and costumes are kept to a minimum. The focus of the production is the singing, and it’s a treat to hear the music every night in rehearsal.
As a refresher, I read some of my not-so-recent posts about theatre, and I felt I have left some holes in some of my postings.
I did not get cast in Chicago! I am pleased to say that the cast was incredible, and they had a sold out run.
I obviously got cast in Coco despite my discouraging callback.
The general callbacks proved to be successful for me. I got a lot of calls and emails calling me back for various types of shows. I have even gotten calls to step into a production that had already been rehearsing. I suppose someone dropped out. Regardless, they were very very successful.
I re-read the post about 4 auditions, 4 callbacks, and ZERO castings… I know I know, I always say it… win some loose most. My own words struck a deep seeded nerve with me because I had FOUR callbacks THIS WEEKEND. Please may 4 not be my number nemesis.
With all this performing great sacrifice has accompanied the success, sadly. I missed my really really good friend’s wedding in Hawaii. It’s made me very very sad, but I’m looking forward to event on the 19th that Pash and I are happily attending.
Saturday, April 5, 2008
The Battered Wife
I never understood the battered wife syndrome because it seemed pretty simple.
He hits you.
You leave him.
The end.
But it's never that easy.
So, he doesn't hit you. Yet, one day you wake up and your self worth and self respect is in the toilet because you refuse to demand better, and you think your expecations are too high. He says, "I can't make you feel anything. You choose your own feelings." He says, "You can't depend on me for your own happiness." You think your expectations are too high, and that he's right. Maybe one day he'll want to marry you. Afteral, you are only 25 and you have plenty of time. Then you realize you want to travel, but he says, "I've already been to all the places you want to go. You should travel on your own."
He's right.
So you change your wants.
You try to call him out on all the things that that are making you so unhappy, but you have to make sure that it's on a Saturday morning so that his brain can focus because if you bring it up when he doesn't want to talk about it he'll just ignore you. Then you discover, it's your fault you feel so horrible. The next thing you know you're looking at a post-it with two suggestions on how to improve your issues.
Then you look around and see all the successful thriving relationships and you think wait what? He calls you everyday? You mean, he doesn't need personal time every weekend? All of a sudden you're struck with envy and this desperate desire to love and be loved in return, but you can't let go. You can't let go because he needs you, he has potential or because he's trying, but the truth is that your self-esteem is nowhere to be found, and everything is your own fault.
But what about that delicate balance?
What if you're wrong? What if he really is so great, but you're doomed by unrealistic expectations and you end up loosing the greatest love you have ever known because you failed to see the positive and only the negative.
But what if you're right?
Please take care. There is this unwritten social subtext that says be humble, but humility can not take place of self-love.
How I'm trying to demand what I deserve because I have to believe that there is someone out there that will not ask me to compromise myself, and help to bring out the best in me. It has to exists and if by chance it doesn't, then self-love is better than the absence of love.
He hits you.
You leave him.
The end.
But it's never that easy.
So, he doesn't hit you. Yet, one day you wake up and your self worth and self respect is in the toilet because you refuse to demand better, and you think your expecations are too high. He says, "I can't make you feel anything. You choose your own feelings." He says, "You can't depend on me for your own happiness." You think your expectations are too high, and that he's right. Maybe one day he'll want to marry you. Afteral, you are only 25 and you have plenty of time. Then you realize you want to travel, but he says, "I've already been to all the places you want to go. You should travel on your own."
He's right.
So you change your wants.
You try to call him out on all the things that that are making you so unhappy, but you have to make sure that it's on a Saturday morning so that his brain can focus because if you bring it up when he doesn't want to talk about it he'll just ignore you. Then you discover, it's your fault you feel so horrible. The next thing you know you're looking at a post-it with two suggestions on how to improve your issues.
Then you look around and see all the successful thriving relationships and you think wait what? He calls you everyday? You mean, he doesn't need personal time every weekend? All of a sudden you're struck with envy and this desperate desire to love and be loved in return, but you can't let go. You can't let go because he needs you, he has potential or because he's trying, but the truth is that your self-esteem is nowhere to be found, and everything is your own fault.
But what about that delicate balance?
What if you're wrong? What if he really is so great, but you're doomed by unrealistic expectations and you end up loosing the greatest love you have ever known because you failed to see the positive and only the negative.
But what if you're right?
Please take care. There is this unwritten social subtext that says be humble, but humility can not take place of self-love.
How I'm trying to demand what I deserve because I have to believe that there is someone out there that will not ask me to compromise myself, and help to bring out the best in me. It has to exists and if by chance it doesn't, then self-love is better than the absence of love.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
San Francisco
Please please explain these concepts to me San Francisco.
I don't understand why I must wait in 2 hour lines to get a parking permit for my car. I don't understand why my registration has to match the address where I clearly live since there is a bill in my name dated February 2008.
I don't understand why it takes 6-12 weeks to mail me a registration form that you plum forgot to send to me.
Yet, my parking permit is expired for seriously 30 seconds and there's your damn little car waiting for March to rear it's ugly head just so you can slap a 50 dollar ticket on my windshield.
THEN when I go to get a parking pass on the same day I got that ticket, you say, "I'm sorry you have a ticket. I can't give you a pass."
I reply, "I'm refuting the ticket."
"Well, you haven't written your letter yet."
"That's cause you gave me the ticket 4 hours ago."
See how efficient that is? WHY WHY WHY can't that be put towards something a little more productive like sending my forms in a timely manor. Instead of sucking the money out of my bank account like a money mosquito? I already feel responsible for the new pavements on all San Francisco sidewalks, since I have paid San Francisco over $2,000 since I have lived here!
San Francisco, can't you give me a break. Just this once? Please. I'll give you a million dollars. Wait, sorry, I already did that. What else do you need?
I don't understand why I must wait in 2 hour lines to get a parking permit for my car. I don't understand why my registration has to match the address where I clearly live since there is a bill in my name dated February 2008.
I don't understand why it takes 6-12 weeks to mail me a registration form that you plum forgot to send to me.
Yet, my parking permit is expired for seriously 30 seconds and there's your damn little car waiting for March to rear it's ugly head just so you can slap a 50 dollar ticket on my windshield.
THEN when I go to get a parking pass on the same day I got that ticket, you say, "I'm sorry you have a ticket. I can't give you a pass."
I reply, "I'm refuting the ticket."
"Well, you haven't written your letter yet."
"That's cause you gave me the ticket 4 hours ago."
See how efficient that is? WHY WHY WHY can't that be put towards something a little more productive like sending my forms in a timely manor. Instead of sucking the money out of my bank account like a money mosquito? I already feel responsible for the new pavements on all San Francisco sidewalks, since I have paid San Francisco over $2,000 since I have lived here!
San Francisco, can't you give me a break. Just this once? Please. I'll give you a million dollars. Wait, sorry, I already did that. What else do you need?
Monday, March 3, 2008
I'm Back
Hi! I've missed you.
Let's hug. *hug*
Ok, so now that we have that out of the way, let's dish....
It's been so long since I have written, I need to get back into the swing of things. With this said, I must postpone the homeless story because it HAS to be perfect!!!
In my absence, I have:
1) Fallen behind on my homework. (I will get to that today)
2) Desperately tried to avoid scheduling my dentist appointment, but my tooth is going to shatter any second now.
3) Scared myself into working at home, since my desk literally fell on me.
4) Gained weight.
5) Got up on Grey's Anatomy
6) Fell in love with Heroes
7) Working on Lost
8) Took care of stuffy nose Pasha.
9) Working hard to defeat a co-worker at Guitar Hero playing on expert! I WILL DO IT! It's just a matter of time.
OH! I did get called back for Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz in an equity show... that was cool!
So, all in all, it's been a pretty successful vacation if I may say so myself.
Let's hug. *hug*
Ok, so now that we have that out of the way, let's dish....
It's been so long since I have written, I need to get back into the swing of things. With this said, I must postpone the homeless story because it HAS to be perfect!!!
In my absence, I have:
1) Fallen behind on my homework. (I will get to that today)
2) Desperately tried to avoid scheduling my dentist appointment, but my tooth is going to shatter any second now.
3) Scared myself into working at home, since my desk literally fell on me.
4) Gained weight.
5) Got up on Grey's Anatomy
6) Fell in love with Heroes
7) Working on Lost
8) Took care of stuffy nose Pasha.
9) Working hard to defeat a co-worker at Guitar Hero playing on expert! I WILL DO IT! It's just a matter of time.
OH! I did get called back for Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz in an equity show... that was cool!
So, all in all, it's been a pretty successful vacation if I may say so myself.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
On vacation...
Stay tuned.
My brain is over working right now. I'm taking a break till Monday then you can hear about how I tripped over a homeless person.
My brain is over working right now. I'm taking a break till Monday then you can hear about how I tripped over a homeless person.
Monday, February 4, 2008
A conversation over breakfast on Saturday...
Me: You're my Dr. McDreamy.
Him: No, I wanna be Dr. McSteamy.
Me: NO! Dr. McSteamy cheats!!!!
Him: Well I don't, but Dr. McDreamy is sososoososososo girlie. Hey, what would you do if House guest starred on Grey's Anatomy?
Me: Um, that would be a TV orgasm.
Him: Wow, do you have any granola bars?
Him: No, I wanna be Dr. McSteamy.
Me: NO! Dr. McSteamy cheats!!!!
Him: Well I don't, but Dr. McDreamy is sososoososososo girlie. Hey, what would you do if House guest starred on Grey's Anatomy?
Me: Um, that would be a TV orgasm.
Him: Wow, do you have any granola bars?
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